Chapter of life #9 (Ramadhan)

رمضان❤️

It hurts seeing people only care about the food and fun in ramadhan! I mean thats not wrong. But think of the great things that ramadhan offers for you!

Enzayn enas ily ma y9alun, 7awlaw atleast tabdun t9alun ib ramadhan! Lana itha bas t9umun whats the point! Tara i9alat aham shay! 9alaw ba3dayn 9umaw!

i9alat aham ilfruth! shfaydat 9yamkum etha ma 9laytaw? 

w ana ma afham enas ely yaf6run ib ramadhan 3abalhm ma7ad byshufhm. rabkum foug! rabkum yshuf kel shay! kel ma ishay6an ywaswes estghfraw!

kha9e9aw wagt 7ag rabkum! 

egraw quraan! Mu gam agulkm khtmuh! ohwa a7san lo takhtmun, 7awlaw takhtmun, bas 7ata lo ma gdartaw 3ady! Bas egraw a few pages a day, that's it!

Take advantage, ed3aw zyada, 9alaw zyada! Tara hashahar maku mthlaa! 

7awlaw kethr ma tgdrun ena tsawun ilkhayr! mathalan 9ada8aa, ay shay tgdrun takhthun 3alayh 7asanat. 

Tara hashahar mu bas 7ag musalsalat w sleeping all day w 6al3a all night. 

Mu gam agulkm la tstanson, bl3aks!

Have fun bas also ed3aw. 

Adry enaa ramadhan nights a7laa shay, w mafeeha shay! i LOVE ramadhan nights, awnas shay!

Mafeeha shay etha kh9astaw shwaya mn wagtkm 7ag rabkum! w ba3dayn stansaw kthr ma tabun!

Honestly ana wa7da ma afham shlon enas ynamun mn isa3a 6 lain ilathan! 

Adry ena tgron quraan ilfayer w tad3un wagta.. bas kel ma tzeedun kel ma a7san!

ma tadrun ay 7asana btdakhelkm iljana! 

 (اللهم إني نويت أن أصوم رمضان كاملا لوجهك الكريم إيمانا واحتسابا اللهم فتقبله مني واغفر لي فيه وبارك لي فيه وزدني علما)

و مبارك عليكم الشهر💗

Chapter of life #8 (Love/Teenage Relationships)

I know that i will probably get so much hate on this post.. but this is my point of view. Everyone has a different opinion, and i totally respect your opinion! If you have any hate comments, please keep them to yourself, and thankyou x
&honestly at first i was hesitating.. i didnt wanna post this post lana i didnt think i could handle all the hate! But i guess after a while of thinking i decided to post it w allah yaster x



Love? What is Love?
Love is just a strong feeling of affection.
I strongly believe that Love is based on many things. If these things dont exist, there is no love!
First and most importantly, trust and hoensty! I strongly believe that there is no love without trust! You have to trust the person you love. You have to be hoenst with them, ALWAYS!
Second, caring! If you dont care for that person you love, you really dont love them!

I believe that these are two most important things! There are other important things as well such as, making you feel like a better person, understanding etc..

Love comes in many shapes and forms! You can love your parents, your soulmate, your friends!

But today ill be talking about relationship love..mainly teenage relationships..

I personally am not with relationships at teenage years. Im one of those people who believe that any love at this age, isnt love. Its just a small crush! Okay, true love at this age MIGHT exist, but its quite rare.
I believe that it is a wrong thing.
Its not 7aram to love.. love is something every person goes through in their lives. Its a feeling everyone experiences, quite normal!
But getting in a relationship? Thats where mistakes begin..

Okay, maybe true love might show up at this age? But will it take you anywhere? 90% of the time it wont! You might marry that person you get in a relationship with, but doesnt always go that way!

So why risk it all?
Why risk your family's trust?
Why risk your reputation?

Nowadays, people dont care! Ma7ad byaster 3alaykum! Lazem tastrun nafskum!

Stay away mn ilghala6 w il7aram..
la tkhalun ishay6an ywaswes!


Most teens usually between the age of 14-16, believe that they found their 'soulmates'! But wanna know what really worries me?
Seeing 11 and 12 year olds who dont know that much about life, being in their third relationship thinking its the right thing to do!

Think of it this way.. is it all worth it?
Can't you wait a bit?
True love will come when the time is right!
And relationships is never the right way!

Players are many nowadays. with 2 words, you can be fooled!
So always be careful!


I hear people saying 'ilawlad yl3bun 3ala banat inas blah blah', but hoenstly? mu bas ilawlad.. fe banat as well!
W people who play on others? tara edenya dawara.. keep that in mind!

Its your teenage years.. mistakes are made!
Try avoiding these mistakes

9a7abtaw mara? khala9 ily 9ar 9ar! Just try avoiding it and dont do it again
Because this will not only put your reputation on the line, but your family's as well!

Love will come when the time is right, trust me


(& i know so many people wont like this post, and im sorry! bas this is MY point of view! Everyone has a different point of view, and i respect yours, so please respect mine! Oh and I RESPECT people who are in relationships! Kel wa7ed 7ur ib7ayata! Bas im just stating my opinion! Bas deeraw balkm x)

She's Gone #9

Maha's POV:

Should i really tell her? Like this is serious! I need to make up my mind now.. 

I mean i can trust her, right?

Me: Okay this is what happened. as you know at some point Fay and I were close. Like i really did love her. But then something that wasnt supposed to happen  hapenned! 

Something went wrong. I have this thing i always have to do before starting to trust someone. I have to test them. So i went on and tested Fay. I wanted to see if she really was trustworthy. So i invited a random guy over..

Flashback: 

Fay: Maha, whose this?

Me: My boyfriend, just sit with him for a second. 

Fay: no thanks

Me: Please?

Fay sat with him and they just sat there awkwardly. 

Saad(the guy): You're really pretty

Fay: umm thanks. 

Saad: I need you to help me dump Maha

Fay: why is that?

Saad: i wanna be with someone else, someone like youu..

Back to reality:

Me: & Fay gave him some advices. I was so mad. She then told me she didnt want him to hurt me and all that crap. 

Later on i find out they were dating. 

He obviously never told her how all this was an act, so i did!

I loved seeing the pain in her eyes at that point. I was thankful i never trusted someone like her. People always looked at her as the nice person, they never knew what she really was!

Since that day on, i started to go out with more guys! It was always my goal to be better and more loved than her. She kept telling me it was all wrong but i knew it was all jealousy..

Things happened between us.. many things...

But theres also another reason this happened..

I didnt kill Fay..

Someone else did.. and i know who that person is. 

and that person has a stronger reason to hate Fay..

but that? i could never tell you..

(I know you guys expected something so much more, but i wanted to write something, but i knew it would be quite wrong and will get me hate as well! This "reason" was my second choice, so i had to go with it. But theres something else comin, just wait for it;))

She's gone #8

It was like a slap on the face..

I actually would of expected that rumor to come out, but knowing Maha is the one who started it? 

It just hurts..

All this time i thought she was my friend, i believed she was one of the only true friends i had, but as they say, people are full of surprises, right? 

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Reema: There's one more thing you need to know. 

Me: What is it?

Reema: Im starting to think that all this was planned. Like just look at it, Maha has always been jealous of Fay and at some point she wanted her gone. 

Then it hit me...

Flashback to the day Fay died: 

fay was leaving to Maha's house. 

Fay: Sarah!!!

Me: Yes?

Fay: "I love you, and i want you to remember that everything happens for a reason"

i thought it was just fay being her old wise self, but now i think maybe she knew..

Maybe she knew she wouldnt be back..

I was more sad than angry right now. 

How come she never told me about Maha?

Why was all this happening?

I needed to go see Maha.. now! i couldnt wait any longer. 

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I knocked on the door and Maha came out. 

i looked at her with angry expressions, while all she did was laugh. 

I really wanted to slap her so hard, but i just couldnt. 

Maha: What do you want?

Me: an explanation. 

Maha: for what?

Me: Fay..

Maha: haha, you heard didnt you?

Me: Maha, this isnt funny, you have so much explaining to do.

Maha: Well i have nothing to do with Fay, she was nobody to me, and you're nothing to me either. 

& she slammed the door in my face. Leaving me there with all those unanswered questions running through my head. I couldnt let go...

But i had an idea..

Me: alo, Reema?

Reema: yes?

Me: i need a favor..

Reema: sure?

Me: i need you to go to Maha, and get an explanation from her, just act like you're against me. 

Reema: You got it. 

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Reema's POV:

I was off to Maha's house. This is the least i could do to Sarah and i had to do it. 

Maha: oh hi reema

Reema: Hey:)

Maha: come in. 

Reema: I needed to talk to you about something. Sarah is getting on my nerves right now. 

Maha: yeah me too, someone told her about me and Fay! i have to find out eho it is. 

Reema: ill help you, but i need something in return..

Maha: What is it? 

Reema: Tell me what happened..

(btw just wanted to mention that Maha always believed that Reema hated Sarah from the very beginning)

(also wanted to mention, i know you've been waiting to know what REALLY happened, but you wont wait longer;) ill try posting another chapter tonight) 

Chapter of life #7 (Self-harm)

I felt like i needed to talk about this topic, mainly because its a problem many people are facing. Especially teenagers!

What is Self harm?
Self harm is defined as simply, when someone causes injury to their own body. For example, by cutting!

i personally look at it in a diffferent point of view. I believe its not only hurting yourself physically, but also emotionally! I believe when someone might think theyre bad and start doubting themselves etc, theyre causing harm to their inner self! I personally believe that self harm could be caused emotionally, mentally and most importantly, physically!


Okay why do people self harm?

Some people, ESPECIALLY teenagers feel like its a way to express their feelings and let out all the sadness and anger! They feel like it makes them feel better about themselves.I totally understand that, But keep in mind, that there is ALWAYS a better way to express!
Dont do something harmful to yourself just cause you're angry


Alot of people asked me this question "have you ever selfharmed?"
well to be honest, physically as in cutting or all that no! But emotionally yeah!

Think about it this way "Is it worth it?"

Almost everyone who cuts, regrets it later on! So you can obviously say that its not worth it! i understand some people cant control and all that, but trust me YOU can!


Is there a way to stop self harming?
Of course their is, nothing is impossible!

1- Clear your mind from all those negative thoughts and dont let anything get to you! Something bad happened to you? Say il7mdllah and move on! Everything happens for a reason and certainly nothing and no one is worth it!

2- If youre a pereson who cuts, throw away all those razors or whatever you use to cut! It might be hard at first, but trust me you wont regret it later!

3- Do something you love! You wanna change something? Go for it! Do what makes you happy and BE happy!

4- Let out all that anger in another way! i personally always write my thoughts and feelings on a piece of paper and it really does help! Just let it all out in a non harmful way!

5- Pray! id3aw rabkum ena everything gets better! Allah is always there for you! Talk to him about it, you'll feel all better.

6- Talk to someone you trust, Go see a psychiatrist! that doesnt make you crazy, its a way of getting rid of all those feelings.

7- Remember self harm isnt doing any good to you, it just makes you feel worse about yourself. Remember to be happy, and if youre not pleased with yourself? Go for a change!



and never forget to do good to yourself and your body! You should embrace the good in you and be happy, because you deserve to!
Theres always another alternative, DO NOT SELFHARM

& before you think of self harming, 9alaw rak3tayn!

& if you ever need to talk about it, ill always be here xx


oh & people? Just forgot to mention one small, important point. Be careful what you tell/ call a person! Because maybe one word, could be the reason they start self harm! Dont insult them, even if youre trying to joke around cause its not even funny!

She's Gone #7

Opening the door, i couldnt believe who was standing there. 

As much as i wanted to scream and shout and rip her hair off, i wanted to hug her so tightly and cry. 

Its like a little piece of me was back to life. Reema was one of my closest friends and she was SO much like Fay. 

She looked at me with eyes filled with tears and threw herself on me hugging me so tightly. 

I was still so shocked but i hugged her back. I really needed that hug. She wasn't there for me when i really needed her, but i still miss her. 

We sat down, 5 minutes of awkward silence.. 

Me: What did you want to tell me about fay?

Reema: Umm. i dont think its an accident. I think all this was planned.. Well you and Fay were friends with Maha, but you didnt know what she truly was. Fay kind of did, but tried to ignore the fact, thinking Maha might change. 

Maha has always been that person who was jealous of Fay and wanted her gone. 

She would always tell us how Fay was the reason Maha was "broken". How you and Fay always did bad to her and threatened her. How Fay stole her boyfriend and was the reason eveyone left her etc..

I was in complete shock and i really didnt know what to say. Maha? How could Maha be that kind of person. 

REEMAS POV: FLASHBACK:

I remember how Maha called me that day and wanted to talk to me.. 

maha: theres something i need to tell you.. you should stay away from sarah. 

Reema: Why?

Maha: Fay and her Sarah are bad people that you shouldnt be around. Theyre dangerous. and not trustworthy. 

Back to present:

Thats why i didnt talk to you for a while. Maha was always telling people how you two were bad people etc.. and umm..

She's now telling people you're the reason Fay is dead..