Chapter of life #13 (Treat others the way you want to be treated)

Just wanted to mention that I'm going to be mentioning a short story at the beginning of every post, just so my purpose is clearer..

Treat others the way you want to be treated. Probably a saying everyone knows but barely anyone lives by. All people think about is how they are treated, not how they treat others.

They dont care whether they hurt others or not..

All they care about is themselves. 

So i remember once i was with my mom, and we were waiting for someone. So a taxi was going to park, and a car almost hit the taxi. So the taxi stopped and the car stopped right next to the taxi. The man in the car started cursing the taxi driver, while he stayed there not replying. Then the man got out of his car and started hitting the taxi driver. 

 I couldn't get that picture out of my head.. So sad how heartless some people could be. 

Some people might think that "Oh what a strong man", but i consider this a weakness. You have no right to hit some poor guy, who did not cause any harm to you. 

Would anyone want to be treated that way? Of course not! 

So why treat others that way?

Why hurt others if you don't want anyone to hurt you?

This does not only go under physical pain, but emotional as well.

Why say hurtful words to someone? 

Try putting yourself in someone else's shoes before doing anything.

Try asking yourself, "Do i want anyone to treat me this way?"

People have feelings! They might not show you that they're hurt, so you have to be careful.

And remember you're not better than anyone.

God created us all equally.

You have no right to treat someone badly just because you feel like "you're on top".

Oh and just one thing, if you treat someone terribly, that does NOT make you a strong person!!

I found this on a website and i REALLY liked it. Please read it:

نسينا ان يوم القيامه جميعنا سنقف بين ايادي الله

لا فرق بيبنانا الا بتقوتنا واعمالنا ليس بانسابنا ولا جنسياتنا

فقد خلقنا الله أسوياء .. وسوف ندخل الجنة بأعمالنا ..

ودرجات تقربنا من الله وعباداتنا .. فلم لوم أشخاص..

لم العنصرية .. والتعصب .. وكلنا من ادم وحواء ..

وكلنا إخوة في البشرية ...

أنا لا أقف بجانب .. احد .. ولكن أقف بجانب الانسانيه ..

والكرامة التي خلقنا عليها والعقل الذي كرمنا الله به عن كل الخليقة ..

ونعمة الإسلام التي هذبت مشاعرنا .. ورفعت من أخلاقنا سموا ورشادا ..

لم لا نلوم أنفسنا على تعالينا أمام بعضنا البعض بانسابنا او الواننا .. إن

كان هناك إصلاح .. فهو من داخلنا وقوة المسلم تنبع من داخله .. ليس من

عضلاته المفتولة .. أو شكله الجميل بل من قوة إيمانه

She's gone #12

First of all: This story is coming to an end, so what do you want the next story to be about? Many people want me to write a love story, do you guys want that? Just tell me what you want!
& Second: This post is dedicated to an amazing person, who was always there to support me, she's too precious! This post goes to; @MaryamAlOmar_


(IM EXTREMELY SORRY FOR THE VERY SHORT POST, BUT IM GONNA POST TOMORROW AS WELL, AND NEXT POST WILL PROBABLY BE THE FINAL POST)

Now to the story..


Could it get any worse?
Can there really be more to the story..
I dont think so.. but i guess there is..
Abdullah: Fay actually agreed on killing the person.. She loved her sister too much, she was willing to do anything for her! But thats not all,


Fay actually told Maha that she needed to talk to Sarah first, before she made any "dumb" move..
& Maha knew that if Fay would go talk to Sarah, everything would be screwed..
So she tried holding her back until the person she needed gave her a call, and ill mention who that person is later..
So Maha told Fay to calm down, and that everything will be okay..


She called that guy and told him to get ready..
And 5 minutes later Fay died,,
Everything really was planned..
Everything Maha did worked out the way she wanted it to work out..

She wanted Fay and Sarah gone out of her life, and thats what she got..

She ruined Sarah's life, not knowing what life might be holding for her!

All she cared about was herself.
She believed that if she killed fay, she would be happy..

Reema: Why didnt you tell the police?
Abdullah: Because she knew about us, and said that if i told the police, she would ruin your reputation.. So I had to be quiet..\

Reema: But how do you know all this when you werent a part of the plan?
Abdullah: The accident happened right infront of my eyes, and Maha knew that! I knew who the guy was, and i could of told the police.
So Maha knew how to shut me up, and thats exactly what i did..
Since the accident, i feel guilty! As much as part of me wants to throw Maha in jail, part of me wants to protect you..

Reema:"Its like even though i havent been with him for a while, i still love him.", But who was the guy driving the car?

Abdullah: Are you sure you are ready for this?
Are you sure you're ready to face Sarah and tell her all this?
Reema: Yes..

Abdullah: The one driving the car was Fay's cousin..
But thats not all..

Theres one more thing you need to know before you leave..
Although Maha wanted both Fay and Sarah to suffer, she wasnt the one who came up with the killing idea..

The one who did all this, and is the main reason behind everything that is happening is..

Sarah's Father..

(Random post) -please read it-

This isnt a chapter of life or anything, its just something i wanted to let outt..

This account has been everything to me. This blog has made me feel like a better person, i dont know if that even makes sense. 

Let me make it clearer, when i started this blog, never would of thought id make it this far. People always said how my blog changed their lives and how it was inspiring etc.. and that means the whole world to me. Maybe some people werent very sincere about it, bas it sure made me happy! 

This account has also been a way of expressing for me, just like now. a7is i could write anything i want here.. w it would actually make me feel better. 

9a7 a lot of times i wanted to close this blog, lana a7s ma kan la ma3na, bas everytime i think of closing it, i feel like im shutting a part of me down. 

Although its not as good as other blogs, w it might not have a clear purpose, i still love having this account/blog! 

Ive met people on this account who mean the whole world to me now. i trust them with everything, never in a million years would i have thought id meet them!

9a7 i hestitated at first at opening this blog, bas i gotta admit it was something amazing!

So many people on this acc i met, were always too kind! They would randomly just plaster a smile on my face, and they know who they are! 

So, the main point im mentioning all this is for you to know how much you guys really helped me get my blog this far. 

So i really want to say sorry if i ever hurt any of you, in any way shape or form. 

If i ever said something offensive, hurtful etc..

I dont mean any of those things i said, i promise you!  

Im a person who cant stand having someone za3lan meny, even if i strongly dislike that person. So athaitkum eb shay? 9ar7uny, w ill apologise again. i dont mind!

W people in general tend to get hate, so 9a7 some people would hate on my ask w chethy blah blah, bas i forgive all those people, whether they meant what they said or they didnt! Those people might of said hurtful things, bas those things make me stronger

w keep in mind, if you ever need advice on anything, or just someone to listen, im here for you! 

Or if you just need a day maker, dm me at anytime and ill be happy to plaster a smile on that beautiful face❤️

Chapter of life #12(Money)

Money?
Okay, so im not going to start with an introduction, cause it basically doesnt need it! Ill get right to the point..

SOME people think that just because they have money, they're rich!
Money isnt the only thing that makes you rich in this world!
They believe we have money, we could do whatever we want. Disrespect people who dont have as much money as us!
Thats just sick, just because someone doesnt have money, it doesnt mean they're any less than you! They might actually be richer than you! They have a better attitude and behavior! That simply makes them richer than you! They might be better 3end Allah!
So dont treat people less, just because they dont have as much money!


Look at it this way, if you were someone with no money, would you want to be treated any differently? Ofcourse not, so just treat others the way you want to be treated..


Theres something else id like to mention, if you have money, why not use it in a benefitial way? In other words, give money to the poor!

Speaking about money, id like to mention one thing as well, just cause you have money and wear the highest brands, doesnt mean you should judge people who dont wear very high brands!
You look at them and think "Oh they're not wearing this, so they must be poor, and i shouldnt treat them well"

Some people wont spend a ton of money on something everyone has, even if they have all the money in the world!
Oh & one last thing, stay away from flous il7aram! Okay for example, someone asked you to do something bad in exchange for money, you did it! Whats the point? Its better to live as a person with enough money, than to have tons of 7aram money! cause flous il7aram ma tathmer!

Ya nas keep in mind, btt7asbon 3ala hatha!

You have money? gulaw il7mdllah, some people dont have a single penny and are dying right now! You're sitting in a place, a roof on top of your head! Thats a blessing some people would do anything for!


 (وَلا تُبَذِّرْ تَبْذِيراً إِنَّ الْمُبَذِّرِينَ كَانُوا إِخْوَانَ الشَّيَاطِينِ وَكَانَ الشَّيْطَانُ لِرَبِّهِ كَفُوراً) 

she's gone #11

A face i knew..

A familiar face actually. 

Very familiar..

Those eyes..
That sparkle..
those were the eyes i loved..
the eyes i fell for..
the eyes i couldnt get over..

He didnt change a bit.. he just looks.. tired..

He was probably as shocked as i was..
I stood there, no words could come out..
All i was thinking is what does he have to do with Fay?

Abdullahs POV:
Its her..
I never thought id see her again after the way i hurt her..
She still looks beautiful..
She didnt change a single bit..

Back to Reema:
He let me in and i sat..
Still no one said a word..
So i decided to break the silence..
Me: I just came to ask what you have to do with Fay and Maha..
Abdullah: Ill tell you everything..
Remember the day i hurt you? The way i left you for 'no reason'? Fay was the reason..

I had to break up with you in order to save you. Makes no sense right? Maha payed me. You knew how desperate i was at that point and how much i needed money. So i agreed withouteven  thinking. She asked me to hire some stranger to tell Fay that he was going to get back at her sister for what she did to him, when in reality her sister didnt do anything. Maha hated them both so bad. She asked me to tell the man to tell Fay that Sarah was in a relationship with him and was willing to do anything for him. When in reality, Sarah never even met the guy. 

So the next day Maha called Fay and told her that she could help her. 

Fay went there hoping she really could, but Maha just made it even worse. At first , she kept blaming her for everything and telling her how everything that ever happened to Sarah was her fault..

Fay wanted all this to end, one way or another. 

Maha gave her one condition in order for that to happen..

kill someone..

Who is that person? 

I have no idea..

But wait, theres much more to the story..

wanna know what the most shocking part is?...

she's gone #10

Reema's POV:

i was walking home.. convinced with what Maha told me. I mean she wouldnt lie would she? 

My phone rang a second later indicating me that i just got a message. It was an unknown number. They said..

"What maha told you was a lie"

i was shocked at first, but then i thought maybe its just someone messing with me. But who would do that. 

I called the number..

But they hung up. 

The person sent another text. 

Im Maha's brother. To know what really happened call this number. 

I immediatly called the number. 

Me: Hello

..: Hi?

Me: (I started explaining the story)

..: You really expect me to tell you the truth without anything in return?

Me: What do you want?

..: Ill think about it and call you back later. 

I couldnt wait and called Maha's brother. Im sure he knew what really happened. 

Majed(Maha's brother): I cant tell you.. i promised maha to never tell what really happened. Just wait for the guy. Im sorry. 

My phone rang a few minutes later:

..: Want to know the whole truth? Come to this address.(...)

I didnt want to go. I couldnt. I didnt have a good feeling about this, but i had to do it for Sarah.. even if it cost me myself. 

his house was in the middle of nowhere. It didnt even look like a house.. it was more of a garage. My legs were seriously shivering. I knocked the door and waited..

The door opened.. and i was surprised to see.......

To be continued!

Just to mention #15 will probably be the last post. and will post another post tomorrow maybe! & answers will be in the next 3 posts ;)

Chapter of life #11 (Hate)

First of all i wanted to mention this topic was suggested by someone and they needed this post so bad, so i thought of posting it, and posting jealousy next week x

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Hate? Some people might think what kind of topic is this? What is there to talk about? 

There's so much to talk about actually. 

Hate, just like love, is a strong word. Its also quite a normal feeling! 

When people hate someone, they usually go beyond the limits. They start doing all these bad things to them etc..

You hate someone? Dont disrespect them. Its not their fault you dont like them. 

& one more thing, hating someone for their looks is sick. Some people go "oh she's ugly, i hate her" seriously? You two were made equally! You have no right to hate someone for their looks! because Allah is the one who created them, the same way he created you. Got it?

Anyways, Why do people hate? 

One of the MAIN reasons people hate each other is jealousy! They feel someone is better than them, they start hating them. 

Another reason, people hate others for their culture and religion! you have no right, just cause a person isnt like you or doesnt have the same culuture or religion as you, that doesnt give you a reason to hate them!!

There are too many reasons, i could go on and on! But this is not the reason i wrote this post, the reason is to stop hate!

How to stop hating people?

Not so easy right?

But everything takes time, so just bear with it. 

Think about it.. First of all find out WHY you hate that person. Is it worth it? Hating someone, feeling stressed about it and making them feel bad? 

Try giving that person a chance, you might end up loving them, you just never know. 

Look at it this way, what would this world be like without hate? Perfect huh? So yeah..

I read this one post and i loved it so muchh.. just read it.. i know its quite long.. but its worth it. i promise. 

www.lovepanky.com/my-life/relationships/how-to-deal-with-hate 

 

Chapter of life #10 (self-confidence/believing in yourself)

First of all, Confidence! What is confidence?

Confidence is defined as having faith and believing in somone and their ability in doing something..

But i strongly believe that you cant believe in others if you dont believe in yourself. You have to have faith in yourself in order to have faith in other people. That's self confidence. Having faith in YOURSELF! & Keep in mind.. if you dont have faith in yourself, no one will have faith in you!

Soo..

Look at yourself, do you believe in yourself? Would you call yourself a confident person? 

People look at it as such an easy thing. they go like: Why arent you confident, believe in yourself. They say it like its an easy thing to do. 

I gotta admit.. its not the easiest thing on earth. 

It takes time to build confidence. 

Its not one of those things that would build itself overnight. 

Its something you need to work hard to achieve..

But as they say, nothing is impossible. 

Start by having a strong personality. Dont let what people say affect you. Keep in mind you're better than that. 

Keep telling yourself you're a strong person and you'll actually start believing it!

When it comes to confidence, self confidence in particular, you have to recognize all your insecurities in order to start accepting them. remember that imperfection is beauty. 

Think positively and have faith in yourself. Love what you do. Believe that you're capable of achieving whatever you set your mind to! 

& most importantly: STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO OTHERS!

A strong personality automatically leads to self confidence. Keep that in mind..

"Self confidence is the most attractive quality anyone can have. How can anyone see how great you are, if you cant see it yourself" 

(& as a continue to this post, the next post will be about "being yourself")

Chapter of life #9 (Ramadhan)

رمضان❤️

It hurts seeing people only care about the food and fun in ramadhan! I mean thats not wrong. But think of the great things that ramadhan offers for you!

Enzayn enas ily ma y9alun, 7awlaw atleast tabdun t9alun ib ramadhan! Lana itha bas t9umun whats the point! Tara i9alat aham shay! 9alaw ba3dayn 9umaw!

i9alat aham ilfruth! shfaydat 9yamkum etha ma 9laytaw? 

w ana ma afham enas ely yaf6run ib ramadhan 3abalhm ma7ad byshufhm. rabkum foug! rabkum yshuf kel shay! kel ma ishay6an ywaswes estghfraw!

kha9e9aw wagt 7ag rabkum! 

egraw quraan! Mu gam agulkm khtmuh! ohwa a7san lo takhtmun, 7awlaw takhtmun, bas 7ata lo ma gdartaw 3ady! Bas egraw a few pages a day, that's it!

Take advantage, ed3aw zyada, 9alaw zyada! Tara hashahar maku mthlaa! 

7awlaw kethr ma tgdrun ena tsawun ilkhayr! mathalan 9ada8aa, ay shay tgdrun takhthun 3alayh 7asanat. 

Tara hashahar mu bas 7ag musalsalat w sleeping all day w 6al3a all night. 

Mu gam agulkm la tstanson, bl3aks!

Have fun bas also ed3aw. 

Adry enaa ramadhan nights a7laa shay, w mafeeha shay! i LOVE ramadhan nights, awnas shay!

Mafeeha shay etha kh9astaw shwaya mn wagtkm 7ag rabkum! w ba3dayn stansaw kthr ma tabun!

Honestly ana wa7da ma afham shlon enas ynamun mn isa3a 6 lain ilathan! 

Adry ena tgron quraan ilfayer w tad3un wagta.. bas kel ma tzeedun kel ma a7san!

ma tadrun ay 7asana btdakhelkm iljana! 

 (اللهم إني نويت أن أصوم رمضان كاملا لوجهك الكريم إيمانا واحتسابا اللهم فتقبله مني واغفر لي فيه وبارك لي فيه وزدني علما)

و مبارك عليكم الشهر💗

Chapter of life #8 (Love/Teenage Relationships)

I know that i will probably get so much hate on this post.. but this is my point of view. Everyone has a different opinion, and i totally respect your opinion! If you have any hate comments, please keep them to yourself, and thankyou x
&honestly at first i was hesitating.. i didnt wanna post this post lana i didnt think i could handle all the hate! But i guess after a while of thinking i decided to post it w allah yaster x



Love? What is Love?
Love is just a strong feeling of affection.
I strongly believe that Love is based on many things. If these things dont exist, there is no love!
First and most importantly, trust and hoensty! I strongly believe that there is no love without trust! You have to trust the person you love. You have to be hoenst with them, ALWAYS!
Second, caring! If you dont care for that person you love, you really dont love them!

I believe that these are two most important things! There are other important things as well such as, making you feel like a better person, understanding etc..

Love comes in many shapes and forms! You can love your parents, your soulmate, your friends!

But today ill be talking about relationship love..mainly teenage relationships..

I personally am not with relationships at teenage years. Im one of those people who believe that any love at this age, isnt love. Its just a small crush! Okay, true love at this age MIGHT exist, but its quite rare.
I believe that it is a wrong thing.
Its not 7aram to love.. love is something every person goes through in their lives. Its a feeling everyone experiences, quite normal!
But getting in a relationship? Thats where mistakes begin..

Okay, maybe true love might show up at this age? But will it take you anywhere? 90% of the time it wont! You might marry that person you get in a relationship with, but doesnt always go that way!

So why risk it all?
Why risk your family's trust?
Why risk your reputation?

Nowadays, people dont care! Ma7ad byaster 3alaykum! Lazem tastrun nafskum!

Stay away mn ilghala6 w il7aram..
la tkhalun ishay6an ywaswes!


Most teens usually between the age of 14-16, believe that they found their 'soulmates'! But wanna know what really worries me?
Seeing 11 and 12 year olds who dont know that much about life, being in their third relationship thinking its the right thing to do!

Think of it this way.. is it all worth it?
Can't you wait a bit?
True love will come when the time is right!
And relationships is never the right way!

Players are many nowadays. with 2 words, you can be fooled!
So always be careful!


I hear people saying 'ilawlad yl3bun 3ala banat inas blah blah', but hoenstly? mu bas ilawlad.. fe banat as well!
W people who play on others? tara edenya dawara.. keep that in mind!

Its your teenage years.. mistakes are made!
Try avoiding these mistakes

9a7abtaw mara? khala9 ily 9ar 9ar! Just try avoiding it and dont do it again
Because this will not only put your reputation on the line, but your family's as well!

Love will come when the time is right, trust me


(& i know so many people wont like this post, and im sorry! bas this is MY point of view! Everyone has a different point of view, and i respect yours, so please respect mine! Oh and I RESPECT people who are in relationships! Kel wa7ed 7ur ib7ayata! Bas im just stating my opinion! Bas deeraw balkm x)

She's Gone #9

Maha's POV:

Should i really tell her? Like this is serious! I need to make up my mind now.. 

I mean i can trust her, right?

Me: Okay this is what happened. as you know at some point Fay and I were close. Like i really did love her. But then something that wasnt supposed to happen  hapenned! 

Something went wrong. I have this thing i always have to do before starting to trust someone. I have to test them. So i went on and tested Fay. I wanted to see if she really was trustworthy. So i invited a random guy over..

Flashback: 

Fay: Maha, whose this?

Me: My boyfriend, just sit with him for a second. 

Fay: no thanks

Me: Please?

Fay sat with him and they just sat there awkwardly. 

Saad(the guy): You're really pretty

Fay: umm thanks. 

Saad: I need you to help me dump Maha

Fay: why is that?

Saad: i wanna be with someone else, someone like youu..

Back to reality:

Me: & Fay gave him some advices. I was so mad. She then told me she didnt want him to hurt me and all that crap. 

Later on i find out they were dating. 

He obviously never told her how all this was an act, so i did!

I loved seeing the pain in her eyes at that point. I was thankful i never trusted someone like her. People always looked at her as the nice person, they never knew what she really was!

Since that day on, i started to go out with more guys! It was always my goal to be better and more loved than her. She kept telling me it was all wrong but i knew it was all jealousy..

Things happened between us.. many things...

But theres also another reason this happened..

I didnt kill Fay..

Someone else did.. and i know who that person is. 

and that person has a stronger reason to hate Fay..

but that? i could never tell you..

(I know you guys expected something so much more, but i wanted to write something, but i knew it would be quite wrong and will get me hate as well! This "reason" was my second choice, so i had to go with it. But theres something else comin, just wait for it;))

She's gone #8

It was like a slap on the face..

I actually would of expected that rumor to come out, but knowing Maha is the one who started it? 

It just hurts..

All this time i thought she was my friend, i believed she was one of the only true friends i had, but as they say, people are full of surprises, right? 

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Reema: There's one more thing you need to know. 

Me: What is it?

Reema: Im starting to think that all this was planned. Like just look at it, Maha has always been jealous of Fay and at some point she wanted her gone. 

Then it hit me...

Flashback to the day Fay died: 

fay was leaving to Maha's house. 

Fay: Sarah!!!

Me: Yes?

Fay: "I love you, and i want you to remember that everything happens for a reason"

i thought it was just fay being her old wise self, but now i think maybe she knew..

Maybe she knew she wouldnt be back..

I was more sad than angry right now. 

How come she never told me about Maha?

Why was all this happening?

I needed to go see Maha.. now! i couldnt wait any longer. 

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I knocked on the door and Maha came out. 

i looked at her with angry expressions, while all she did was laugh. 

I really wanted to slap her so hard, but i just couldnt. 

Maha: What do you want?

Me: an explanation. 

Maha: for what?

Me: Fay..

Maha: haha, you heard didnt you?

Me: Maha, this isnt funny, you have so much explaining to do.

Maha: Well i have nothing to do with Fay, she was nobody to me, and you're nothing to me either. 

& she slammed the door in my face. Leaving me there with all those unanswered questions running through my head. I couldnt let go...

But i had an idea..

Me: alo, Reema?

Reema: yes?

Me: i need a favor..

Reema: sure?

Me: i need you to go to Maha, and get an explanation from her, just act like you're against me. 

Reema: You got it. 

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Reema's POV:

I was off to Maha's house. This is the least i could do to Sarah and i had to do it. 

Maha: oh hi reema

Reema: Hey:)

Maha: come in. 

Reema: I needed to talk to you about something. Sarah is getting on my nerves right now. 

Maha: yeah me too, someone told her about me and Fay! i have to find out eho it is. 

Reema: ill help you, but i need something in return..

Maha: What is it? 

Reema: Tell me what happened..

(btw just wanted to mention that Maha always believed that Reema hated Sarah from the very beginning)

(also wanted to mention, i know you've been waiting to know what REALLY happened, but you wont wait longer;) ill try posting another chapter tonight) 

Chapter of life #7 (Self-harm)

I felt like i needed to talk about this topic, mainly because its a problem many people are facing. Especially teenagers!

What is Self harm?
Self harm is defined as simply, when someone causes injury to their own body. For example, by cutting!

i personally look at it in a diffferent point of view. I believe its not only hurting yourself physically, but also emotionally! I believe when someone might think theyre bad and start doubting themselves etc, theyre causing harm to their inner self! I personally believe that self harm could be caused emotionally, mentally and most importantly, physically!


Okay why do people self harm?

Some people, ESPECIALLY teenagers feel like its a way to express their feelings and let out all the sadness and anger! They feel like it makes them feel better about themselves.I totally understand that, But keep in mind, that there is ALWAYS a better way to express!
Dont do something harmful to yourself just cause you're angry


Alot of people asked me this question "have you ever selfharmed?"
well to be honest, physically as in cutting or all that no! But emotionally yeah!

Think about it this way "Is it worth it?"

Almost everyone who cuts, regrets it later on! So you can obviously say that its not worth it! i understand some people cant control and all that, but trust me YOU can!


Is there a way to stop self harming?
Of course their is, nothing is impossible!

1- Clear your mind from all those negative thoughts and dont let anything get to you! Something bad happened to you? Say il7mdllah and move on! Everything happens for a reason and certainly nothing and no one is worth it!

2- If youre a pereson who cuts, throw away all those razors or whatever you use to cut! It might be hard at first, but trust me you wont regret it later!

3- Do something you love! You wanna change something? Go for it! Do what makes you happy and BE happy!

4- Let out all that anger in another way! i personally always write my thoughts and feelings on a piece of paper and it really does help! Just let it all out in a non harmful way!

5- Pray! id3aw rabkum ena everything gets better! Allah is always there for you! Talk to him about it, you'll feel all better.

6- Talk to someone you trust, Go see a psychiatrist! that doesnt make you crazy, its a way of getting rid of all those feelings.

7- Remember self harm isnt doing any good to you, it just makes you feel worse about yourself. Remember to be happy, and if youre not pleased with yourself? Go for a change!



and never forget to do good to yourself and your body! You should embrace the good in you and be happy, because you deserve to!
Theres always another alternative, DO NOT SELFHARM

& before you think of self harming, 9alaw rak3tayn!

& if you ever need to talk about it, ill always be here xx


oh & people? Just forgot to mention one small, important point. Be careful what you tell/ call a person! Because maybe one word, could be the reason they start self harm! Dont insult them, even if youre trying to joke around cause its not even funny!

She's Gone #7

Opening the door, i couldnt believe who was standing there. 

As much as i wanted to scream and shout and rip her hair off, i wanted to hug her so tightly and cry. 

Its like a little piece of me was back to life. Reema was one of my closest friends and she was SO much like Fay. 

She looked at me with eyes filled with tears and threw herself on me hugging me so tightly. 

I was still so shocked but i hugged her back. I really needed that hug. She wasn't there for me when i really needed her, but i still miss her. 

We sat down, 5 minutes of awkward silence.. 

Me: What did you want to tell me about fay?

Reema: Umm. i dont think its an accident. I think all this was planned.. Well you and Fay were friends with Maha, but you didnt know what she truly was. Fay kind of did, but tried to ignore the fact, thinking Maha might change. 

Maha has always been that person who was jealous of Fay and wanted her gone. 

She would always tell us how Fay was the reason Maha was "broken". How you and Fay always did bad to her and threatened her. How Fay stole her boyfriend and was the reason eveyone left her etc..

I was in complete shock and i really didnt know what to say. Maha? How could Maha be that kind of person. 

REEMAS POV: FLASHBACK:

I remember how Maha called me that day and wanted to talk to me.. 

maha: theres something i need to tell you.. you should stay away from sarah. 

Reema: Why?

Maha: Fay and her Sarah are bad people that you shouldnt be around. Theyre dangerous. and not trustworthy. 

Back to present:

Thats why i didnt talk to you for a while. Maha was always telling people how you two were bad people etc.. and umm..

She's now telling people you're the reason Fay is dead..

She's Gone #6

First of all theres a few things id like to mention. 

1- Im sorry for not posting alot on this story, but i feel like its slowly getting worse and i wanted to delete it at some point. I had no idea what to write. 

2- would you like this story to be 15-30 chapters?

3- Last but certainly not least, id like to mention that ill be posting a chapter of this story every tuesday x

Sara's POV: 

I was just sitting here waiting for a miracle to happen. The scar of Fay's death is slowly starting to heal but it just wont go away. No matter how hard i tried. I wanted it to go away so bad but it just wont and i couldnt do anything about it. 

It was one of those lazy fridays, and all i could think of was Fay, Fay, Fay!

Surprisingly, i didnt tear of sadness this time, i teared tears of hapiness. quite ironic huh?

Have i mentioned that i've always been a negative person and so far im working on being positive. 

Anyway, i started thinking of how happy she is right now. How she is in a better place. Fay has only done good to people. She had the purest heart ever, she would pray, she did everything God asked us to do. That means she's going to heaven, right?

Flashback:

Fay: Saraaa, wake up!

Sara: Gett outt and leave me alone..

*Fay spilled a bucket of cold water on me* But i wasnt even mad. I remember all i did was laugh when she did that. I miss our stupid memories. Gosh i want them all back.. 

i was home alone, some knock on the door interrupted my thoughts.

I went and opened the door thinking it was my parents but i saw someone i never thought id see again in my whole life.. Reema..

The one who left me when i needed her the most. My face was exactly :|

Reema: can i come in? Theres somethingg i need to tell you. This has to do with Fay..

Chapter of life #6 (Insecurity)

Well..

first thing's first..

What is insecurity?

Insecurity is simply the lack of confidence. People usually start losing their confidence and start questioning themselves. Usually these types of questions..

Why am i not good enough?

Why am i not pretty?

Why am i unworthy?

But first let me tell you one thing, its all in your head..

If you keep thinking youre not good enough, youre unworthy and not pretty, you'll actually start believing it! Thats what leads to insecurity.
Also, having people tell you that youre unworthy makes you believe it. So you have to have a strong personality, so no one can tell you what YOU are and what you're not!!

Youre the one who should define yourself, dont let anyone do that for you!! 

Confidence is everything. 

Personally so many people asked me this question: Have you ever felt insecure?

I wont lie, the answer is yes.

I didnt have a strong personality and everything got to me, im working on being a stronger and more confident person. So far so good tbh!

 

Anywho, insecurity leads to so many things. For example: DEPRESSION! 

Before you end insecurity: you have to be HAPPY with yourself. 

The first thing you need, is to be confident! Confidence makes you a stronger person and even happier!

think of all the good things about yourself. trust me, there are great things in you that no one else has! that way you WILL feel less insecure about yourself. Start believing in yourself and look at how beautifully amazing you are!

Think positively about yourself! Keep reminding yourself that youre amazing. Tell yourself: "im worth it, im beautiful, im a good person etc.." 

The more you say it, the more you actually start believing it..

Do something you love or something that makes you happy! You'll start feeling happier and you actually wont think about your bad qualities. 

Most importantly remember that you are amazing. You are strong. You are beautiful! you are worth it so smile:D

"Dont let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice"

"Dont let the negative opinions, attitudes, and choices of others get you down. Make your own choice to follow a positive, productive and meaningful path" 

"Insecurity kills all that is beautiful" (so remember to kill insecurity before it kills you)

Chapter of life #5 (Trust)

Trust..

A strong meaningful word..

But not many people take it seriously nowadays..

Some people have no idea how hard it is for someone to put their trust in a person. 

Well..

 What is trust?
Trust to me, is not just a word. Its something we need, its something precious. Its a necessity.

Trust is defined as believing in someone. However, its not that simple. As you grow up and start experiencing difficulties , it starts getting deeper and deeper..

Have you ever trusted someone, and they let you down?
Unfortunately, some people just dont understand how hard it is to trust nowadays.
If someone is brave enough to trust you, dont prove them wrong. Dont disappoint them.


I really cant tell you "dont trust anyone", cause honestly? you cant live without trust! You should trust people, but only a few. And you have to choose wisely..
Before trusting anyone, you should trust yourself.
Because if you dont trust yourself, no one will trust you & you cant trust anyone.

Look at it this way, we all need someone to open up to at some point. If no one trusted, everyone would suffer on their own. Sometimes just opening up to someone, will make you feel better.
Trust makes you live a happier life.

Whats a relationship without trust?
Whats a friendship without trust?
It has no meaning..

Im sure some of you have been let down by some people. That doesnt mean you shouldnt trust anyone again.
It just means that you should be more careful with who you trust..
Its a lesson you have to learn..
So be careful who you trust nowadays..

 Just remember that not everyone who is nice to you is trustworthy. Some people are just too good at acting. They just want you to trust them, and then they break the trust. I repeat BE CAREFUL. 

"Dont trust easily. Only a few people care, the rest are just curious"

"Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if its broken, but no matter how hard you try, you can still see those cracks.."

Chapter of life #4 (Positivity)

(First id like to mention that this is probably not the best post. So yeah sorry)

I personally find this thing very important, and ill mention why in a second..

I believe that positivity is the key to a better and happier life..


Positivityy..
To me, positivity is looking at the bright side of every situation and being thankful no matter what is going on in your life..
Some problems might occur, but if you look at the negative side, itll just get worse. It might effect you emotionally as well.
Everything has a bright side, even the deepest and biggest problems in the world. If you look deep deep down you'll see that little spark shining..

Always be positive. 
If you think negatively, you will never live a happy life.

Positivity can change your whole life. You might not see the change, but it will.
It'll change it to the better.
You will smile more..

Might seem like a small change, but it does grow..

To be honest, its not possible to think positive all the time.. but you want the majority of your thoughts to be happy and positive.

Some people might think its impossible to look at the bright side.. but nothing is impossible.
You could develop positivity by doing many things. For example: surrounding yourself with positive people. 

Positive thinking changes your life by giving you skills to lessen your problems, gives you the strength to go on, because you have formed good habits.

 Positive thinking helps you be that person others can follow as an example, and gives you hope..

Its what you need..

"You cant live a positive life with a negative mind"

Chapter of life #3 (Parents)

Parents..

The people who care most about you. 

You might think, why am i going to talk about parents now?

Simply because i see so many people nowadays disrespecting their parents..

Parents are life. they are the only two people who will care for you no matter what. Watch over for you. Listen to you. They will stick by you no matter what you're going through.

People think its quite "cool" to disrespect their parents. I'll tell you one thing. you're out of your mind. You have no heart if you disrespect the ones who raised you and got you this far. Its not something to be proud of. 

Disrespecting your parents isnt cool, its the complete opposite of cool. Some people, especially as teenagers, start thinking that their parents are nothing. They start treating them like nothing. like theyre just some person who doesnt mean anything. They start thinking that they're all grown up and dont need their parents, all they need is their friends. that is completely wrong.

 

Now think of it this way.. some people dont have parents. they would do anything and everything just to have one more moment with them. 

Dont take your parents for granted. Trust me, when the whole world leaves. they will always be there. 

Some people think their parents dont care for them. But that is just not true. No matter how strict they are,  they love you more than anything in this world. no matter how much they shout at you, its because they care for you. They want the best for you. They might not show it, but they really feel it. 

Appreciate them. 

Abeekum tsawun one thing right now..

Go kiss your parent's foreheads. 

و قضى ربك الا تعبدوا الا اياه و بالوالدين احسانا اما يبلغن عندك الكبر احدهما او كلاهما فلا تقل لهما اف ولا تنهرهما و قل لهما قولا كريما. و اخفض لهما جناح الذل من الرحمة و قل رب ارحمهما كما ربياني صغيرا

"Love your parents. we are so busy growing up that we often forget that they are growing old"

Chapter of life #2 (Friendship)

Friends..

Define friendship.. What is friendship?

Well everyone has a different point of view. Some people think that all friends are forever. They will always care for you and be there for you, they dont believe in fake friends. While others believe that all people change, even closest friends. They feel like no matter who they befriend, they should always keep a distance. Well i have a theory when it comes to friendship. Some people might agree with it, and some might not. I personally strongly believe that fake friends do exist. I also believe that true friends exist. they might be rare, yet they still exist. But true friends, the ones who will last for a lifetime wont come easy. They arent easy to find. they usually come in the most unexpected time. When you least expect it. for example, when you're all on your own. You think no one is there for you and you're alone? Thats when they usually show up. They're like a tiny spark that lightens up your world. 

So their are two kinds of friends. The ones that will last for a lifetime and the ones that wont. 

Some friendships will last for a lifetime. and if you have a friend that will stick with you no matter what? Always fight for them, cause theyre so precious and rare. 

But then, there are the ones that wont last. whether you like it or not, some friendships are just not meant to last. There's nothing wrong with that. Thats life. 

Just because you lose a friend, doesnt mean that life is over. Everything happens for a reason. You will find better people. You will find TRUE friends someday. Ones that really will be with you till the end of time. 

Always keep in mind that good things take time. And just because you lost one person, doesnt mean the whole world is over.

لو كانوا خيرا لنا لأبقاهم الله معنا

"As we grow up, we start to realise that it is less important to have lots of friends, and more important to have real ones"

The chapter of life #1

So I thought of starting to talk briefly about life..

Life..

What is life?

What does life mean to you? 

We all have a different view of life. Some people see it as “living hell”.

Some people see life as a beautiful place.

It all depends on the person and what they’re going through..

But as you grow up youre slowly going to realize that life IS beautiful.  

We go through the pain to find happiness.

No one has a perfect life. Everyone has some cracks..

Some people are just better at hiding them or fixing them.

Life has its ups and downs.

There are the good and bad moments in life

But they all teach you something.

You might not know what the lesson is, but time will reveal it all.

I want you all to answer this question, just answer it in your head, “Is there something good in your life?”

Im sure everyone thought of something. No matter how sad you are there has to be something that makes you happy. There has to be something in your life that just makes it worth it. Something that makes it all worth the struggle, worth the living..

We all go through some problems in this life. But there is always a way to fix these problems. There isn’t a problem without a solution. You must never lose hope no matter whats happening..

Life is just too short.

Be happy.

Live it to the fullest.

Don’t waste a second.

“Life is like a camera, focus on whats important, capture the good moments, develop from the negatives, and if things don’t work out.. take another shot” 

She's gone. #5

Reema’s POV (one of Sarah’s “friends”):


 I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know if I should tell Sarah. I didn’t know if I could go up to her.  When she needed me the most? I left her..

left her when she had no one

I left her when her other half died

I should have been there for her

But I wasn’t..

I couldn’t..
 

I couldn’t because, I was told not to..

I couldn’t because the person who told me to stay away from her was holding something against me..

She was holding everything against me..

But I was starting to think, that I should make it up to Sarah.

I should go warn her from Maha.

I should tell her what she did.

I should tell her that its her fault.

I cant let her live in the thought that she was behind all this when it was really Maha’s fault Fay is dead.

I was willing to put my reputation on the line..

I owe it to Sarah..
 

She was always there for me, but when she needed me the most, I left her..

What kind of friend am I?

How could I be such a bad friend?



So Maha went and told everyone some rumor about Sarah, right before Fay passed away. She went and told everyone how Sarah and Fay were behind her breakup..

It was all a lie..

All along she was just jealous of Fay.

She wanted to get rid of her somehow.

She said something’s to her right before Fay left her house angry..
 




But then it hit me, what if it was all planned? What if the car accident was planned? What if Maha really did kill Fay?

She's gone. #4

Those miserable days kept passing by. Each day worse than the day before it. Each day the pain inside of Sara grew. The pain wouldn’t go away. It was like a scar. No matter how hard she tried to hide it, it will always be there.

She never knew that one day all this would happen to her. She never believed that life could take away something so precious in the blink of an eye. She always thought that everything that was beautiful and made her happy would last. But it was gone, her one and only cause of happiness was gone. With each day that passed, she missed her sister even more..

Like I was mentioning in the previous chapter she started feeling guilty. She started thinking that she was the reason her sister is dead. She thought maybe as the days passed by, that feeling would just vanish, but it just grew stronger..

So much stronger..

To the point where she started saying it out loud. People started to believe it..

They started to believe that she really was after it..

They didn’t know that it was just a strong feeling..

People had only two things in mind, it was either, Sara really killed her sister, or she really lost her mind.

Sarah’s POV:

Its like every place on earth now is a living hell. Darkness fills the whole world. Everywhere I go, all I hear is people talking about me. I cant clearly hear what they say, but I was sure it wasn’t something pleasant.

Even my parents think im crazy now.

They’re trying to help, but there’s nothing they could do.

I needed to do something..

I needed to change something..

I needed to change myself..

But I had no idea what to do…

She's gone #3

Back to the present moment:

Sarah was getting ready for school. She was looking closely to the mirror and she realized how scary she had become. Her face was so yellow and thin. It’s just that you could tell how different she looks. She was always that girl with the beautiful face and beautiful features. She thought maybe that’s why people were talking to her. She believed they were somehow her friends but they all wanted something from her.

                As she was going down, her parents stopped her. They haven’t quite got over Fay's death, but theyre starting to kind of live with it. She could still hear her mother crying in the middle of the night. She just doesn’t like showing her weaknesses infront of anyone. She always wants to be that strong woman. My mom wanted me to eat something before I leave but I just didn’t feel like it. She just couldn’t reply. She knew I was still not over the death, and there wasn’t something she could do about it. There was only one thing anyone could do, but its just impossible. Bring fay back.

The ride to school was longer than usual, I was deep into my thoughts. School didn’t feel like home any longer. Suddenly everyone distanced themselves from me. Even Maha, who I thought was my friend after Fay. But since Fay’s death, she had been trying to avoid me and I just don’t know why. I didn’t think I should talk to her, so I just ignored her and everyone else.

Like every other day, people were just giving me those weird stares. They just don’t make me feel uncomfortable any more. I got used to them. I kept thinking so much can change in a year..

Back to the past:

I remember right before Fay went to Maha’s we were talking about random topics. Like any other girls, we were obsessing over celebrities and models. It was just a regular Saturday. But Fay got a call from Maha and she wanted to see her. I didn’t feel like going so I just stayed at home.

If only I went

Maybe Fay wouldn’t be dead

Maybe I would of died instead

Maybe I could of saved her

Maybe

Maybe

Maybe

& suddenly I started to feel guilty, I thought what if it was really my fault she is dead…

She's gone. #2

A year ago..

Fay’s POV:

I just left my friend Maha’s house and was extremely mad. I can’t believe how heartless people could be..

I’ve always thought she was my friend..

I always believed that she would be there for me..

I believed that true friends really exist..

But as they say, nothing lasts forever..

I needed someone.. I needed Sarah.

I needed her warm hug..

I needed her to tell me that everything will be alright.

I needed someone who was willing to stand by my side and listen

I was deep into my thinking that I crossed the street and didn’t look..

All I could hear later on was a car hitting me so hard.

I felt like knifes were cutting through my whole body..

People were shouting around me..

Then suddenly I started feeling numb..

I could feel my soul coming out.. & then everything went black..

Sarah’s POV:

I was sitting in the living room with my parents waiting for Fay to arrive. We were supposed to go out for dinner.. but she’s late. I had a feeling that something bad was going on.. I could just sense it.

Suddenly, the phone rang. I had a strong feeling it was Fay, so I picked up the phone and I just wished I didn’t pick it up.

I dropped the phone and tears started falling..

I kept repeating that same sentence “She passed away, she passed away”

My parents were asking me what’s wrong, but I couldn’t even speak..

I tried spilling those painful words out “fay, is dead”.

I fell down to my knees and started crying.. My knees weren’t able to hold me

I couldn’t even breathe well..

I’ve lost my sister

I’ve lost my friend

I’ve lost my other half

I’ve lost my life..

But the main question is, why did Fay leave her friend's house mad?

She's gone. #1

Hey, so im back to blogging and I deleted all the past stories and im starting from zero. So I hope you like this new story & don't forget the feedback please xx

 

 

 

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She was out for her morning jog, the cold breeze was brushing through her long brown hair. She loved the way it made her feel. She loved the feeling of running on an early morning, she felt like she was running away from all her problems. The chilly weather made it even better. She stopped for a second and took a deep breath, she knew it was probably time to go back home and get ready for school.

 

Her name was Sarah, she was a 16 year old. she had the perfect features. Long brown hair, big brown eyes, and a perfect body, but she never knew that one day it will all be taken away. She never knew that one day, she would be someone, no one gave a damn about. People always looked at her because they saw beauty in her face, no one ever looked deep inside her soul. No one ever knew how broke she really was. All they ever cared about was the outside. After what happened to her, the pain reflected on her outer beauty. So she just lost everyone. People who she thought were her friends. People who eventually only cared about her outer beauty. They were blind to see how at that point, she really needed someone by her side.. but there was no one.. What was really going on at that time?..

 

 

So it all somehow started when she lost her sister. They were like one soul dwelling in two bodies. They were the kind of sisters that would never fight over anything, literally! They had the kind of relationship that was based on trust. They trusted each other with everything. Her sisters name was Fay, she was Sarah’s twin, only that she had shorter hair, other than that they looked exactly the same. As I was saying, they actually had the exact same personality.  Its actually been almost a year since Sarah lost her sister but she still cant manage to get over it.

 

No one ever thought that Sarah, the most cheerful/ happy person would be this depressed at some point. Her smile never left her face before, but now she cant even fake a smile! She lost so much weight, her face just grew even paler and people just started distancing themselves from her. They look at her as a scary monster now. She actually never trusted anyone but her sister, but now? All the feelings are bottled up inside and she cant open up to anyone, because she just knows that no one will listen or care.

 

So how did Fay die?

Fay had been hit by a car.

That day, the day she was hit by a car, She wasn’t the only one who got killed. She died, and killed Sarah’s heart with her. She took her beautiful soul away.

 

From that day on.. Sarah had literally been a heartless person. She didn’t only lose her sister and soul mate, she lost her self…