She's Gone #9

Maha's POV:

Should i really tell her? Like this is serious! I need to make up my mind now.. 

I mean i can trust her, right?

Me: Okay this is what happened. as you know at some point Fay and I were close. Like i really did love her. But then something that wasnt supposed to happen  hapenned! 

Something went wrong. I have this thing i always have to do before starting to trust someone. I have to test them. So i went on and tested Fay. I wanted to see if she really was trustworthy. So i invited a random guy over..

Flashback: 

Fay: Maha, whose this?

Me: My boyfriend, just sit with him for a second. 

Fay: no thanks

Me: Please?

Fay sat with him and they just sat there awkwardly. 

Saad(the guy): You're really pretty

Fay: umm thanks. 

Saad: I need you to help me dump Maha

Fay: why is that?

Saad: i wanna be with someone else, someone like youu..

Back to reality:

Me: & Fay gave him some advices. I was so mad. She then told me she didnt want him to hurt me and all that crap. 

Later on i find out they were dating. 

He obviously never told her how all this was an act, so i did!

I loved seeing the pain in her eyes at that point. I was thankful i never trusted someone like her. People always looked at her as the nice person, they never knew what she really was!

Since that day on, i started to go out with more guys! It was always my goal to be better and more loved than her. She kept telling me it was all wrong but i knew it was all jealousy..

Things happened between us.. many things...

But theres also another reason this happened..

I didnt kill Fay..

Someone else did.. and i know who that person is. 

and that person has a stronger reason to hate Fay..

but that? i could never tell you..

(I know you guys expected something so much more, but i wanted to write something, but i knew it would be quite wrong and will get me hate as well! This "reason" was my second choice, so i had to go with it. But theres something else comin, just wait for it;))

She's gone #8

It was like a slap on the face..

I actually would of expected that rumor to come out, but knowing Maha is the one who started it? 

It just hurts..

All this time i thought she was my friend, i believed she was one of the only true friends i had, but as they say, people are full of surprises, right? 

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Reema: There's one more thing you need to know. 

Me: What is it?

Reema: Im starting to think that all this was planned. Like just look at it, Maha has always been jealous of Fay and at some point she wanted her gone. 

Then it hit me...

Flashback to the day Fay died: 

fay was leaving to Maha's house. 

Fay: Sarah!!!

Me: Yes?

Fay: "I love you, and i want you to remember that everything happens for a reason"

i thought it was just fay being her old wise self, but now i think maybe she knew..

Maybe she knew she wouldnt be back..

I was more sad than angry right now. 

How come she never told me about Maha?

Why was all this happening?

I needed to go see Maha.. now! i couldnt wait any longer. 

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I knocked on the door and Maha came out. 

i looked at her with angry expressions, while all she did was laugh. 

I really wanted to slap her so hard, but i just couldnt. 

Maha: What do you want?

Me: an explanation. 

Maha: for what?

Me: Fay..

Maha: haha, you heard didnt you?

Me: Maha, this isnt funny, you have so much explaining to do.

Maha: Well i have nothing to do with Fay, she was nobody to me, and you're nothing to me either. 

& she slammed the door in my face. Leaving me there with all those unanswered questions running through my head. I couldnt let go...

But i had an idea..

Me: alo, Reema?

Reema: yes?

Me: i need a favor..

Reema: sure?

Me: i need you to go to Maha, and get an explanation from her, just act like you're against me. 

Reema: You got it. 

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Reema's POV:

I was off to Maha's house. This is the least i could do to Sarah and i had to do it. 

Maha: oh hi reema

Reema: Hey:)

Maha: come in. 

Reema: I needed to talk to you about something. Sarah is getting on my nerves right now. 

Maha: yeah me too, someone told her about me and Fay! i have to find out eho it is. 

Reema: ill help you, but i need something in return..

Maha: What is it? 

Reema: Tell me what happened..

(btw just wanted to mention that Maha always believed that Reema hated Sarah from the very beginning)

(also wanted to mention, i know you've been waiting to know what REALLY happened, but you wont wait longer;) ill try posting another chapter tonight) 

Chapter of life #7 (Self-harm)

I felt like i needed to talk about this topic, mainly because its a problem many people are facing. Especially teenagers!

What is Self harm?
Self harm is defined as simply, when someone causes injury to their own body. For example, by cutting!

i personally look at it in a diffferent point of view. I believe its not only hurting yourself physically, but also emotionally! I believe when someone might think theyre bad and start doubting themselves etc, theyre causing harm to their inner self! I personally believe that self harm could be caused emotionally, mentally and most importantly, physically!


Okay why do people self harm?

Some people, ESPECIALLY teenagers feel like its a way to express their feelings and let out all the sadness and anger! They feel like it makes them feel better about themselves.I totally understand that, But keep in mind, that there is ALWAYS a better way to express!
Dont do something harmful to yourself just cause you're angry


Alot of people asked me this question "have you ever selfharmed?"
well to be honest, physically as in cutting or all that no! But emotionally yeah!

Think about it this way "Is it worth it?"

Almost everyone who cuts, regrets it later on! So you can obviously say that its not worth it! i understand some people cant control and all that, but trust me YOU can!


Is there a way to stop self harming?
Of course their is, nothing is impossible!

1- Clear your mind from all those negative thoughts and dont let anything get to you! Something bad happened to you? Say il7mdllah and move on! Everything happens for a reason and certainly nothing and no one is worth it!

2- If youre a pereson who cuts, throw away all those razors or whatever you use to cut! It might be hard at first, but trust me you wont regret it later!

3- Do something you love! You wanna change something? Go for it! Do what makes you happy and BE happy!

4- Let out all that anger in another way! i personally always write my thoughts and feelings on a piece of paper and it really does help! Just let it all out in a non harmful way!

5- Pray! id3aw rabkum ena everything gets better! Allah is always there for you! Talk to him about it, you'll feel all better.

6- Talk to someone you trust, Go see a psychiatrist! that doesnt make you crazy, its a way of getting rid of all those feelings.

7- Remember self harm isnt doing any good to you, it just makes you feel worse about yourself. Remember to be happy, and if youre not pleased with yourself? Go for a change!



and never forget to do good to yourself and your body! You should embrace the good in you and be happy, because you deserve to!
Theres always another alternative, DO NOT SELFHARM

& before you think of self harming, 9alaw rak3tayn!

& if you ever need to talk about it, ill always be here xx


oh & people? Just forgot to mention one small, important point. Be careful what you tell/ call a person! Because maybe one word, could be the reason they start self harm! Dont insult them, even if youre trying to joke around cause its not even funny!

She's Gone #7

Opening the door, i couldnt believe who was standing there. 

As much as i wanted to scream and shout and rip her hair off, i wanted to hug her so tightly and cry. 

Its like a little piece of me was back to life. Reema was one of my closest friends and she was SO much like Fay. 

She looked at me with eyes filled with tears and threw herself on me hugging me so tightly. 

I was still so shocked but i hugged her back. I really needed that hug. She wasn't there for me when i really needed her, but i still miss her. 

We sat down, 5 minutes of awkward silence.. 

Me: What did you want to tell me about fay?

Reema: Umm. i dont think its an accident. I think all this was planned.. Well you and Fay were friends with Maha, but you didnt know what she truly was. Fay kind of did, but tried to ignore the fact, thinking Maha might change. 

Maha has always been that person who was jealous of Fay and wanted her gone. 

She would always tell us how Fay was the reason Maha was "broken". How you and Fay always did bad to her and threatened her. How Fay stole her boyfriend and was the reason eveyone left her etc..

I was in complete shock and i really didnt know what to say. Maha? How could Maha be that kind of person. 

REEMAS POV: FLASHBACK:

I remember how Maha called me that day and wanted to talk to me.. 

maha: theres something i need to tell you.. you should stay away from sarah. 

Reema: Why?

Maha: Fay and her Sarah are bad people that you shouldnt be around. Theyre dangerous. and not trustworthy. 

Back to present:

Thats why i didnt talk to you for a while. Maha was always telling people how you two were bad people etc.. and umm..

She's now telling people you're the reason Fay is dead..

She's Gone #6

First of all theres a few things id like to mention. 

1- Im sorry for not posting alot on this story, but i feel like its slowly getting worse and i wanted to delete it at some point. I had no idea what to write. 

2- would you like this story to be 15-30 chapters?

3- Last but certainly not least, id like to mention that ill be posting a chapter of this story every tuesday x

Sara's POV: 

I was just sitting here waiting for a miracle to happen. The scar of Fay's death is slowly starting to heal but it just wont go away. No matter how hard i tried. I wanted it to go away so bad but it just wont and i couldnt do anything about it. 

It was one of those lazy fridays, and all i could think of was Fay, Fay, Fay!

Surprisingly, i didnt tear of sadness this time, i teared tears of hapiness. quite ironic huh?

Have i mentioned that i've always been a negative person and so far im working on being positive. 

Anyway, i started thinking of how happy she is right now. How she is in a better place. Fay has only done good to people. She had the purest heart ever, she would pray, she did everything God asked us to do. That means she's going to heaven, right?

Flashback:

Fay: Saraaa, wake up!

Sara: Gett outt and leave me alone..

*Fay spilled a bucket of cold water on me* But i wasnt even mad. I remember all i did was laugh when she did that. I miss our stupid memories. Gosh i want them all back.. 

i was home alone, some knock on the door interrupted my thoughts.

I went and opened the door thinking it was my parents but i saw someone i never thought id see again in my whole life.. Reema..

The one who left me when i needed her the most. My face was exactly :|

Reema: can i come in? Theres somethingg i need to tell you. This has to do with Fay..

Chapter of life #6 (Insecurity)

Well..

first thing's first..

What is insecurity?

Insecurity is simply the lack of confidence. People usually start losing their confidence and start questioning themselves. Usually these types of questions..

Why am i not good enough?

Why am i not pretty?

Why am i unworthy?

But first let me tell you one thing, its all in your head..

If you keep thinking youre not good enough, youre unworthy and not pretty, you'll actually start believing it! Thats what leads to insecurity.
Also, having people tell you that youre unworthy makes you believe it. So you have to have a strong personality, so no one can tell you what YOU are and what you're not!!

Youre the one who should define yourself, dont let anyone do that for you!! 

Confidence is everything. 

Personally so many people asked me this question: Have you ever felt insecure?

I wont lie, the answer is yes.

I didnt have a strong personality and everything got to me, im working on being a stronger and more confident person. So far so good tbh!

 

Anywho, insecurity leads to so many things. For example: DEPRESSION! 

Before you end insecurity: you have to be HAPPY with yourself. 

The first thing you need, is to be confident! Confidence makes you a stronger person and even happier!

think of all the good things about yourself. trust me, there are great things in you that no one else has! that way you WILL feel less insecure about yourself. Start believing in yourself and look at how beautifully amazing you are!

Think positively about yourself! Keep reminding yourself that youre amazing. Tell yourself: "im worth it, im beautiful, im a good person etc.." 

The more you say it, the more you actually start believing it..

Do something you love or something that makes you happy! You'll start feeling happier and you actually wont think about your bad qualities. 

Most importantly remember that you are amazing. You are strong. You are beautiful! you are worth it so smile:D

"Dont let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice"

"Dont let the negative opinions, attitudes, and choices of others get you down. Make your own choice to follow a positive, productive and meaningful path" 

"Insecurity kills all that is beautiful" (so remember to kill insecurity before it kills you)

Chapter of life #5 (Trust)

Trust..

A strong meaningful word..

But not many people take it seriously nowadays..

Some people have no idea how hard it is for someone to put their trust in a person. 

Well..

 What is trust?
Trust to me, is not just a word. Its something we need, its something precious. Its a necessity.

Trust is defined as believing in someone. However, its not that simple. As you grow up and start experiencing difficulties , it starts getting deeper and deeper..

Have you ever trusted someone, and they let you down?
Unfortunately, some people just dont understand how hard it is to trust nowadays.
If someone is brave enough to trust you, dont prove them wrong. Dont disappoint them.


I really cant tell you "dont trust anyone", cause honestly? you cant live without trust! You should trust people, but only a few. And you have to choose wisely..
Before trusting anyone, you should trust yourself.
Because if you dont trust yourself, no one will trust you & you cant trust anyone.

Look at it this way, we all need someone to open up to at some point. If no one trusted, everyone would suffer on their own. Sometimes just opening up to someone, will make you feel better.
Trust makes you live a happier life.

Whats a relationship without trust?
Whats a friendship without trust?
It has no meaning..

Im sure some of you have been let down by some people. That doesnt mean you shouldnt trust anyone again.
It just means that you should be more careful with who you trust..
Its a lesson you have to learn..
So be careful who you trust nowadays..

 Just remember that not everyone who is nice to you is trustworthy. Some people are just too good at acting. They just want you to trust them, and then they break the trust. I repeat BE CAREFUL. 

"Dont trust easily. Only a few people care, the rest are just curious"

"Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if its broken, but no matter how hard you try, you can still see those cracks.."